sigh of relief...

i dont like it when i have to go on an impromptu introspective journey.

i end up questioning that which doesnt need it, i get mad at myself cos i know i dont need it.I then more infuriated cos the end result is that i get back to square one, where i am most comforatable and sure about myself. the whole process was'nt needed at all.

any way thats where last week took me on a mental plain. this week has so far brought me mucho adulation.

Dan and i performed at musicians night at the adelphi. this was our second go in two weeks, this time performing our synth pop set. As well as making my friends smile i recieved praise of 3 or 4 people i dont know at all. i reckon a rock and roll trip is a long time coming and well deserved. its nice when complete strangers tell you how good you are at something.

In all fairness Dan was the visionary AND the nuts and bolts behind last nights gig. i like the praise but it does always come in my direction.

idiots are never unhappy

so gadget shop came to an untimely end, ensuring in turn that i have no job to go now. Things like employment seem to crumble away wickedly in my hands.

i spent most of friday inebriated. Its the British way, news of any calibre is celebrated by getting drunk.

after playing a few games of pool, i parted company with a number of workmates. temporarily or permanent? who can say? i've got mobile numbers, but i may not use a lot of them.

i know for a fact i'll be using Lee's number. im trying out for his band this week. the opportunity to do my "thang" on stage again is to good to miss.

It's beenthe good life weekend on UKTV Gold. The good life is 30 years old this year. I like the good life. Like dads army, whenever it appears as a repeat run, there is always one i have'nt seen.

It's the women in the good life that i like to turn to. i feel that although Margot's boobs get me hot under the collar, it's Barbara Good i want to make babies with. A slight figure, a pretty face and an often scathing wit. put me down for two.

now i've got a limited amount of time off (i dont intend to be unemployed for long) im going to get down to recording some songs (my computer is almost ready), doing some more writing and getting caught up on some telly.

I think im going to use Alex Ross as wallpaper with my new machine. i find him to be an excellent artist.

The Ed power generator

A brilliant name for a funk band, dontcha think?

got it from star wars monopoly, which i played last friday on my visit to Nottingham to see dave.

Friday was just stupid. having changed my work hours to 9-2, i had time in the afternoon to get some shit out of the way that i'd been trying to do all week. the first two tasks were easy, send a parcel and pick up my photos. The only hard part of the next task was the long walk to national avenue to pick up a parcel. i was informed that i couldnt get it for another 48 hours when i got there. i could have got an earlier train to nottingham and started my break ooner.

the journey to nottingham had me a bit on edge. i had to make a change in sheffield. i've only ever done direct routes before and i was sooooo scared i'd miss the train and have to get the stupidly late one. i asked for info at the kiosk twice. i must have looked a right divvy.

Got to nottingham, dave and tracy prepared tea for me. after letting it settle we played monopoly. As well as dave, Danny played. Danny is from Zimbabwe and he's a top bloke. he provided drunk entertainment the night after. Danny trounced us both at monopoly.

Went shopping in nottingham on saturday. Is'nt it amazing how much money you'll spend on yourself just because you're somewhere different. i spent £20 on comics, bought Tommy on DVD and treated myself to god knows how many sundries.

one added bonus (and one huge coincedence) happenned while shopping in Fopp. there i was pondering over buying the looney tunes DVD. i looked over my left shoulder and there stood Rob browsing the Hip Hop section. he was in nottingham visiting his sister. he certainly was surprised to bump into me.

We drank staurday night, most of this being compiled in the photo album. Dave being his usual drunk and exuberant self caused danny much pain by giving him an almighty wedgie. to add insult to injury, dannt's pants came away in daves hands.

Sunday was a sedate day. read a book, watched telly, took pictures of dragons and had dinner at a pub by the canal. After dinner i got on the train to make my journey home.

All in all a lovely weekend. next time i see dave should (hopefully) be when he brings his band to Hull for a gig. i shall keep y'all posted.

i dont believe it

im officially an intefering busy body.

i wrote me a stroppy e-mail to the Hull Daily Mail and it was printed in today's edition (06/04/05).

i reckon i do quite well as bastion for the common man

long time coming

im, like, mega stoned right now.

i aint had no stoned rant on my journal yet. thought i might givemit a go.

mark. i get he's sorry. he dont have to say it. he's my best friend

paul n karl.they were drunk. it werent that bad.

im old.

ok , relatively speaking im old. dont mean im not thinking about stuff around my birthday.

there is lots have stuff i've not got out of the way yet.

i've not had anybody look at me like i loads matter for a while. the war zone that is love has escaped for more than a while now.

ultimately i get in the way of myself, but in my defence, im bloody well working at it. some see it. some dont.

im sick of moving about. i wanna be in a position to be buying my home in two years time.

before i get to the positive stuff, i want to give a shout out to my parents. in all my life EVERY big decision i've had to make about my future, they have let take and follow through and learn it all myself. they have been thoroughly supportive with it. that is why i love them dearly.

i was onced told that it was statistically, after 22 i would not make any new friends (or summat like that)

i want to thank, in no particular order, Paul C, Paul F, Mireille, Katie, Sadie, Andy, Nicole and Ben, Steve and Stu for making that not true. for me anyway.

Im been thinking about the guys i live with. god they're difficult. but i am also. end of it all, love em. love em loads, its they who've made this the most interesting house i've lived in..

Dan. bless him. i know he doesnt like to take part in the world, but he's one guy i couldnt be without right now. i he hleps my creative side, and i need that lots. cheers dan.

vis and andy. have'nt seen a lot of those two in recent months. ok i have, but not loads as the lovable dysfunctional sitcom way that i remember most fondest.

i have one question to pose to those who i know will be reading this. i ask you leave the answer in the comments section.

do come across i as a cleverer than you type? i've been told i do. your input?

Sober after thought: Ask me about my idea for pac-man the movie some time.