duh duh duh, dunnuh duh.....

had more over the weekend. Another party. Fancy dress for halloween

it was a party. people did party things. its running was nowt extraordinary, so i'll give you my personal highlights.

• Me dressed as Mr.T
• Simon dressed as bender from futurama
• being pseudo- bummed by one of the hosts chums
• seeing paul again after four months
• Pitying fools
• seeing Louise, she's a canny lass
• the vicar with the small child sucking on his phallus

I was ratted on Vodka. i have'nt been drunk on spirits in a long while and i was displaying some harsh behaviour (my petty jealousy heightened by booze). I also had the effect of events coming back to me later the following day, and tha rarely happens as well.

All in all a fantastic peice of partery-hostery. No pics cos my parents thought it fair to pinch my camera and take it to newcastle....

Andrew WK would have been proud....

My night at friends house on saturday night was a spiffing affair.

Firstly, it was a welcome change to be partying of a saturday night as opposed to channel surfing through nowt.

After that, my bones were full o fun. Played Air Hockey (lost every game), mingled those i have'nt mingled with for a while and took fill of company i do often crave. loads fun. Word

I done this test to:

A Childhood Friend Your score was 33 in Unbelievability!

You are your author's childhood friend, and a good example of a fun character for fiction writers everywhere.. You're a pretty neat person- but still very real. You are a person of few extremes, but you have your moments of glory. When you're at your best, people can be wowed by you- but you're not always at your best. And that's OK. You're only human. A novel with you as a character would sell quite well. It might not make the New York Times' bestseller list, but then again, it might. Who knows? Most people would certainly buy a book with you as a character in it. Well, they might wait for it be available in paperback- but they'd buy it eventually.

My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 4% on Implausibility

Link: The Are You a Plausible Character? Test written by coldrose on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

They did'nt say they'd be their in half an hour....

Hello.

the state im, in i reckon i'll just let the ideas fall out of my fingertips.

i had a good night with football tonight.

When theirs 5 of us (one of the gang was missing tonight), we always have 3 Vs 2. I was on the 2 team with Stu. he's a relatively sharp player. can achieve possession but can have trouble at the side of the box. stu and i are'nt considered a great team up.

turns out we won. it was only 1-0. but we clung to that lead quite devilishly. and it was my goal. that went in. direct from my corner kick. Where my name is usually mud, i had avhieved an avoidance level at which they initiated a best out of three and won.

My parents are away this week. so anybody reading this should come and visit me. cos non of you do....

Falling Stars...

i am now the proud owner of an internet connection. i can spread my electronic wins and explore the depths of......well, everything ever i suppose. the internet is a big place.

I quit my job at comet. it was done with very little drama. i just did'nt bother turning up one day.

"what will you do to fund your new found internet connection" i hear you ask. well just you quiet down at the front. I managed to secure employment with a market research company. Ok, so im sat at a computer adorning a headset agian, but its 3 and a half hours a day and the buying public are'nt demanding everything and now off me.

lets see shall we

Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me.

It can only be one word.

No more.

i'll be sure to look down on you from time to time

Soooooooooooooooooooo much has occupied my existence since last i wrote anything here.

my music is coming along leaps and bounds. in conjunction with my computer being fixed (broken due to an error on my part) and andy introducing me to a plethora of new music software, i am approaching some thing that could be remotely considered "my sound". Some of this is being remixed and rejigged by another friend of mine. along with my collaborative work with dan, i seem to have what many would consider "side projects". ooooooh im so prolific. if music were nuclear weapons, id have the UN knocking on my door out of concern.

Back at my parents. this does nothing for my wellbeing other than providing impetus for the above.

i've rediscovered reading.

discovered the TV show lost (its mega)

went to nottingham to see dave again. bless him. he dont half miss me. went to the castle with him this time round. it had swords and guns and a plaque telling me that i was currently 241.32 feet above see level in hull.......

The End (2)

Now i reckon im quite clued up as far as season finale's go. After Buffy, Angel et al i have a keen eye for a finish.

Dr Who' s finale was end-tastic. i was not disappointed. dont think i have been yet with this series. The idea of a Dalek emperor did'nt really take with me though. i wanted Davros.

Do or do not. there is no try

Jobless. lonely and managing my diabetes. all the rubbish stuff

Everything that is'nt happening for me is'nt happenning because im not making it happen. I cant fairly blame anybody. I'd like to, but it's nobody's fault but my own.

yeah im feeling bad and i dont have any right to shove this in my audience's face but at least here my 'rut' is actively acknowledged and i can use it as a stepping stone to actually doing something about it. Dunno what. Too much packing to do to be thinking about that.

Rain rain go away

We tried. it did'nt turn out like we wanted but it happened.

i am of course refering to the attenpted picnic in pearson park today. Fun was had, that much is certain. i have'nt frisbee'd so much in a long, long while or kicked a football (im still a complete spastic with one).

i served up some rather nice strawberry ice tea (never have i been so thankful for baking soda), Andy supported the defence against thirst by supplying a real brew and some yummy rock cakes.

picnikery aside. events have occured. My favourite couple are having problems. Smallville left me on a huge cliffhanger. thankfully WB's autumn schedule means that i can see it this year. i dont have to wait until january. The Dr Who finale is next week. its got Daleks in it and the return of an old enemy. it's likely to be Davros but the Master is a possibility also.

I nabbed the Xbox. Could'nt get hold of KOTOR but i have been playing Halo 2. it's fucking awesome. go play it loads

I found out this week that a friend is moving home up north at the end of this month. more on that nearer the end of the month as it is also the time i leave 39 May street and part ways with my housemates. Although one has parted ways already, we have'nt yet reached zero hour.

An idea waiting to happen

My head hurts because i've been thinking to far ahead. i've been sat for the last hour trying to assess how my future is going to be mapped out. Staring endlessly at a monitor coupled with juggling careers that are very much in the hypothetical, has dulled my brain.

Y'see after a lot of reading and wathcing of the telly, i have started looking into idea of working with Autistic Kids. Im still aiming at the health and social care area, just from a different angle. m still looking into the counselling. it would seem that hull college have relaxed there hours since the ones i was quoted 2 years ago. things are looking feasable for little old me

I notice that the frog has maintained its number one slot for a second week. i believe i asked you all to something about it a couple of entries ago. he's still around. Why have you done nothing?

i read 'Jonothan livingston Seagull' today. its a very nice book. an uplifting affair that be taken at face value or taken on board and aspired to. im not going to say why. i reckon y'all should give it a read if you have'nt already.

John Barrowman in Dr Who. i've always found the man a little too cheesy. his presence makes me a bit uncomfortable. More Daleks next week though. Yay

I have to look after a cat for the next week or so. feeding, cleaning and general attention giving are on high on the agenda. i get xbox, food and drink privelidges from it though. im gonna be a jedi..........

Ich habe Blau Augen....

Ok, i could be getting carried away with this, but this one tells me what colour i am. i like knowing what colour i am.

Your Aura is Blue Your Personality: Your natural warmth and intuition nurtures those around you. You are accepting and always follow your heart. You in Love: Relationships are your top priority, and this includes love. You are most happy when you are serious with someone. Your Career: You need to help others in your job to feel satistifed. You would be a great nurse, psychologist, or counselor. What Color Is Your Aura? Take This Quiz :-) Find the Love of Your Life (and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

star wars/mashed rant

Episode 3. loved it. it was mega.

watching new hope tonight. Revenge of the sith has added enough to the saga to make you wanna finish it. i am appeased not only cinematically but also narratively (that a word?)

Im a bit cained as i perform this awkward keyboard ballet. keys. Everywhere.

im listening to Clawfinger. they're this band from somewhere scandinavian (or somewhere else in that area). they're sounding quite cool right now.

That frog. you all know which one i mean. anybody with an ounce of musical talent and they're fans therein really should stand up against this. action is needed.

it has occured to me recently that my head needs a challenge. not stimulating myself enough mentally.............

Abi Titmuss. it sounds like a seasonal greeting, for a rather rude holiday, delivered by somebody with a cold.

what others see....

While busy blog surfing i found a test that took my interest. here's what it said

Starving Artist You are 28% Rational, 14% Extroverted, 14% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

You are the Starving Artist! You are more intuitive than logical, and are primarily guided by your heart and emotions. You are also very introverted and gentle. Of course, this does not mean that you do not have an ego. In fact, you are surprisingly arrogant for someone so emotional and gentle. This is why you are best described as a starving artist. You are very introspective and quite sure of yourself, as any accomplished artist is, yet your views are impractical, guided by feelings, and overly gentle. You probably find math, logic, and similar intellectual pursuits offensive to your artistic sensibilities, and you prefer the open-endedness of artistry because then you know you can never truly have a wrong answer. So really you have no reason to be arrogant, you big doofus, because the skills you value (emotion, spirit, art, etc.) in yourself are valuable only on a subjective level, meaning your arrogance is purely masturbatory. In short, your personality is defective because you are arrogant, introverted, introspective, gentle, and thoroughly irrational...posessing most of the traits needed to be a starving--and useless--artist. So get out there, write a few short stories that are allegories for the spirit, and starve! To put it less negatively: 1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational. 2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted. 3. You are more GENTLE than brutal. 4. You are more ARROGANT than humble. Compatibility: Your exact opposite is the Capitalist Pig. Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Haughty Intellectual, the Televangelist, and the Emo Kid. * * If you scored near fifty percent for a certain trait (42%-58%), you could very well go either way. For example, someone with 42% Extroversion is slightly leaning towards being an introvert, but is close enough to being an extrovert to be classified that way as well. Below is a list of the other personality types so that you can determine which other possible categories you may fill if you scored near fifty percent for certain traits. The other personality types: The Emo Kid: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Starving Artist: Intuitive, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Bitch-Slap: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Brute: Intuitive, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hippie: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Televangelist: Intuitive, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Schoolyard Bully: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Class Clown: Intuitive, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Robot: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Humble. The Haughty Intellectual: Rational, Introverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Spiteful Loner: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Humble. The Sociopath: Rational, Introverted, Brutal, Arrogant. The Hand-Raiser: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Humble. The Braggart: Rational, Extroverted, Gentle, Arrogant. The Capitalist Pig: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Humble. The Smartass: Rational, Extroverted, Brutal, Arrogant.

My test tracked 4 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender: You scored higher than 10% on Rationality You scored higher than 11% on Extroversion You scored higher than 6% on Brutality You scored higher than 64% on Arrogance

Link: The Personality Defect Test written by saint_gasoline on Ok Cupid

Cripple Calamity

Some say this to my artistic detrement. i say bollocks to them!

Im refering to my quest for leonard Nimoy's and William Shatner's musical back catalogue. I have less Spock than Kirk but i think Spock is the winner so far. he's got that whole jangly 60's feel to his songs (he does take the edge away from 'lord of the rings' with his song 'ballad of bilbo baggins). Kirk just talks over music. It works really well with his collaoration with Henry Rollins though. Right now im listening to Senor Coconut. check it out

I had horrible turn outside spiders last night. after (im told) a tussle with Paul. I fell to the ground. i couldnt get back up. the pain that my legs have been suffering for a while now kicked in. i had to shout for friends to help me up. I've never felt so feeble. it scares me that my own body is once again turning against me.

because of this i smoked lots. i am a weak man......

Hulk Smash

My arms, without a shadow of a doubt, are getting bigger.

I started going to the gym in february. Four months down the line im seeing definition. if i were a comic book character, they'd be shading more parts of my arm. even some t-shirts are getting that little bit tighter around the arm. im glad they dont look like mr tickles arms any more.

My personal vendetta against the coca-cola company has been laid to rest.

I once made a number of phone calls to the company asking why diet Dr Pepper did not come in 500ml bottles. they expalined to me there was no demand for it. that opinion (or fact?) appears to have changed as Dr Pepper z has appeared. its part of a whole range of products with the z monniker. Is 'Diet' or 'light' not acceptable anymore?

hooked on a feeling....

seems im the only one out, of all those i have spoken to about last weeks Dr Who, that liked the direction it went in. i feel quite lonely. like that dalek. any attractive time travellers wanna touch me?

went to a marvelous party

paul dragged me into his world this weekend. i got to hang with his friends at a party he took me to.

i survived quite well. i never reckon on being sociable at parties where i know nobody. i ruined that idea and actually survived the evening without paul carrying me socially.

after being kicked out at four in the morning, paul and i bimbled back to ours with guests in tow and got a bit stoned.

Preceeding the party, we watched Dr Who. It was awsome. i've never really felt for a Dalek before. And having that plunger thing actually do stuff, corking!

sigh of relief...

i dont like it when i have to go on an impromptu introspective journey.

i end up questioning that which doesnt need it, i get mad at myself cos i know i dont need it.I then more infuriated cos the end result is that i get back to square one, where i am most comforatable and sure about myself. the whole process was'nt needed at all.

any way thats where last week took me on a mental plain. this week has so far brought me mucho adulation.

Dan and i performed at musicians night at the adelphi. this was our second go in two weeks, this time performing our synth pop set. As well as making my friends smile i recieved praise of 3 or 4 people i dont know at all. i reckon a rock and roll trip is a long time coming and well deserved. its nice when complete strangers tell you how good you are at something.

In all fairness Dan was the visionary AND the nuts and bolts behind last nights gig. i like the praise but it does always come in my direction.

idiots are never unhappy

so gadget shop came to an untimely end, ensuring in turn that i have no job to go now. Things like employment seem to crumble away wickedly in my hands.

i spent most of friday inebriated. Its the British way, news of any calibre is celebrated by getting drunk.

after playing a few games of pool, i parted company with a number of workmates. temporarily or permanent? who can say? i've got mobile numbers, but i may not use a lot of them.

i know for a fact i'll be using Lee's number. im trying out for his band this week. the opportunity to do my "thang" on stage again is to good to miss.

It's beenthe good life weekend on UKTV Gold. The good life is 30 years old this year. I like the good life. Like dads army, whenever it appears as a repeat run, there is always one i have'nt seen.

It's the women in the good life that i like to turn to. i feel that although Margot's boobs get me hot under the collar, it's Barbara Good i want to make babies with. A slight figure, a pretty face and an often scathing wit. put me down for two.

now i've got a limited amount of time off (i dont intend to be unemployed for long) im going to get down to recording some songs (my computer is almost ready), doing some more writing and getting caught up on some telly.

I think im going to use Alex Ross as wallpaper with my new machine. i find him to be an excellent artist.

The Ed power generator

A brilliant name for a funk band, dontcha think?

got it from star wars monopoly, which i played last friday on my visit to Nottingham to see dave.

Friday was just stupid. having changed my work hours to 9-2, i had time in the afternoon to get some shit out of the way that i'd been trying to do all week. the first two tasks were easy, send a parcel and pick up my photos. The only hard part of the next task was the long walk to national avenue to pick up a parcel. i was informed that i couldnt get it for another 48 hours when i got there. i could have got an earlier train to nottingham and started my break ooner.

the journey to nottingham had me a bit on edge. i had to make a change in sheffield. i've only ever done direct routes before and i was sooooo scared i'd miss the train and have to get the stupidly late one. i asked for info at the kiosk twice. i must have looked a right divvy.

Got to nottingham, dave and tracy prepared tea for me. after letting it settle we played monopoly. As well as dave, Danny played. Danny is from Zimbabwe and he's a top bloke. he provided drunk entertainment the night after. Danny trounced us both at monopoly.

Went shopping in nottingham on saturday. Is'nt it amazing how much money you'll spend on yourself just because you're somewhere different. i spent £20 on comics, bought Tommy on DVD and treated myself to god knows how many sundries.

one added bonus (and one huge coincedence) happenned while shopping in Fopp. there i was pondering over buying the looney tunes DVD. i looked over my left shoulder and there stood Rob browsing the Hip Hop section. he was in nottingham visiting his sister. he certainly was surprised to bump into me.

We drank staurday night, most of this being compiled in the photo album. Dave being his usual drunk and exuberant self caused danny much pain by giving him an almighty wedgie. to add insult to injury, dannt's pants came away in daves hands.

Sunday was a sedate day. read a book, watched telly, took pictures of dragons and had dinner at a pub by the canal. After dinner i got on the train to make my journey home.

All in all a lovely weekend. next time i see dave should (hopefully) be when he brings his band to Hull for a gig. i shall keep y'all posted.