as you may have read, im on the tail end now of a horrible situation with a "friend". its been alright this last week and a half. its not been on my mind. until last night.
after making a sarcastic comment about claire (its expected of me at times), paul piped up, and i quote
"you and her will never be friends again. you may as well not bother"
it brought to mind various chains of thought. firstly, although i have been in a right funk about the whole thing its not nice to hear that i've outright lost a friend forever. in my frustration i still felt we would be hanging out again one day.
Second. the fact that paul said this is either (a) ignorant of the fact that she may have feelings on the whole matter that she could really only express to me alone or (b) she has expressed to him more than he's letting on and it kinda leaked out in his tactless statement.
It's my belief that there are ideas in pauls mind that having me out of Claires life means he can take pride and place as claires closest male friend, settling himself in closer than is safe for the relationship. i've been there. she does somehow inspire that in men.
i was happy after talking this out with Shazia at work. She herself raised the idea of me being usurped. its more believable knowing that an objective and very neutral standpoint like hers could asess it like that.
beyond all that, there are people leaving gadget shop next week to pastures new. shazia is one of them. i'll miss her, she's dead canny like.
got to see my old friend Jamie last night. its nice he still takes time to gather his old college friends. A lot of people who've met him through me have given him a bad rap and its Sooooooo undeserved.
Seeing dave tonight. he's come back up from nottingham for his dads birthday and has taken time out to come see his bezzie mate. dave also rocks.
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