don't look back in anger...

...in fact dont look back at all. keep on moving. its better in the long run.

The issue of me walking away from from aggressive debate has been raised more than once in the last 3 days.

i feel it's better for me to walk away because:

• i dont like my demeanor in a heated state
• i dont want say or take any action i know i will regret later

"walking away" does manifest itself as putting the phone down abruptly. if that is seen to be childish, fine. if it did'nt go that way all the other party would get is angry abuse and it would be silly to want it to go that way.

Stopping and making amends is the most correct way to go about it, but in the moment my savage pride will not budge and those who i have issue with; i dont feel i have ever been seen by them to be sincere, competent, sensible, clever enough or a good person and dont believe they will believe me. i cannot honestly say thats the attitude they want or mean to promote but that is how they make me feel.

this can be seen as unconnected to my original point but this is how i have felt for a long while now. why not air it.

friends do struggle with me at times, i can make it difficult for people as much as the next man, but some have put time in to sort the wheat from the chaff eddie wise. i believe some have'nt.