Girls, eh?

Its no news to my friends that i am completely infatuated by my friend Claire. This i openly admitted to her last night. I was drunk, in a foul mood over something i probably had no business being in a mood over and it kinda just came out.

right now i feel:

1. bad- i feel i've let claire down by harrbouring these feelings
2. anxious - I dont know if she's talking to me
3. scared - of pushing her away because of my rotten behaviour

It all stems from the fact that i've seen friends be something more to her than i could ever be. this frustrates the hell out of me.
It should be acknowledged that (not counting drunken outbursts) i have never pressed this issue. I have kept this under wraps for as long as i could

i just want to be able to conentrate on being her friend again....