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a couple of important events have happened.

firstly, Mark's birthday. He's never been one to celebrate his own birthday, that all requires effort.

Suffice to say, most of mark's birthday was spent at karls house. We watched stuff on telly and DVD, had a few cups of tea and a bit of a smoke. All in all quite a sedate celebration of Mark's 25th birthday.

Next up, my birthday. Festivities started on the sunday evening, when a large number of my friends were invited round for drinks. All those who mattered turned up (apart from some but i'll get to that nearer the end), everyone mingled quite nicely with eachother

i did get a bit worked up by the fact that Karl and Paul were displaying, in my opinion, stupid acts of male bravado. this was underpinned by two obnoxiuous drunks going by the name of Andy and James. Loud and surly are not nice ways to see your own birthday in. they all were mostly harmless but it was a bit unnerving

The day after was my actual birthday. A pleasant affair. i went for lunch with Viki at McCoy's after a few hours rest, i made my way to the lamp for drinks. I was joined by Paul, Mireille, Viki and Claire. NOT all of the important ones arrived. i smoked on my birthday, which was disappointing because i hadnt in weeks, but necessary because i was quite upset by someones actions. heres the deal.

I am very angry and upset at by best friend. i put in lots of actual physical effort to ensure i get to see him, at least once a week. He on the other hand will not make any at all. he will not get out of his house and make the effort to come and see me (he's been to my the house i live in now once in 9 months).
He did not turn up on my birthday. He hasnt done for the past four years. He chose to go to steve's, he said he could'nt make it. i didnt want to stop and listen to why he couldnt make it, i was to angry and if i'd have taken the conversation further, i'd have probably got upset or said something i might have regretted later. i dont believe that there was anything that made him physically incapable of coming to see me on my birthday.

In his defence he may have helped me out as far as money and other such favours in the past four or five years, but that does not mean you dont have to put the legwork and it does'nt make my frustration any less. i am furious with him for it and disappointed in him for it.